IT IS WHAT IT IS BUT IT AINT WHAT IT USED TO BE
I (WROTE) MANY OF THOSE OLD COUNTRY SONGS
Many times daily now I am reminded that I have become a “Seasoned Prepper”. Partly as a conscious choice and partly (well mostly) as a result of past choice’s. “Brings to mind the old George Jones song “Choices”…I’ve had choices since the day that I was born, there were voices that told me right from wrong. If I had listened, well I wouldn’t be here today…
It has been said, “It is good for people to change, but not to forget. You can go back – but you can never return”.
And change I have. For that reason I have ‘compartmentalized’ my past into ‘different lives’ and it is just my way to survive. Spending time looking back is only good ifn you learn from it and maybe more importantly learn to forgive yourself.
Most of my adult life was spent as an adrenalin junky. Riding bulls in one different life, then on to a career in Law Enforcement and Tactical Instructor in that other different life. Dragging and losing several women (and my kids) somewhere along the way. Busting up my mind, my body and my credit to boot.
I went on a three year stint in that one different life, with only me, my pain and the whiskey bottle. Damned near did not make it out of that life alive. But I did, with the Lord’s help to find myself a “Seasoned Prepper” with both my dignity and faith restored intact. Dare I say quite a bit wiser? I now know not only what I believe, but also why I believe it.
All the highfalutin communication radios and and shooting irons are gone now from that Law Enforcement life and my hands are too busted up to even rack a semi-auto. But gone too is the attitude. I will not race you any more to the next ’emergency’, but ifn you will listen – I will give you some of my hard earned advice on the likely best way to handle said situation when you are confronted with it.
In those other lives I was too busy shooting adrenalin to learn to hunt meat, fish or canning said provisions and now my time is being spent much quieter learning those skills on my own.
Oh, and sons…ifn you ever learn forgiveness in your own hearts – this old wannabe Grandpa could teach his grandchildren a thing or two they will not get at a babysitters or the government education system and do it with a new found love, too! There is not much room in this old 30ft RV but it is paid for cash and everything in it works and has a purpose. Maybe I could show them by example the difference between a need and a want, the difference between running to the store and opening up some damned good canned chow and even cooking some more in a Dutch Oven on a campfire.
When was the last time you slowed down enough to really enjoy and use a campfire?
It is a new life, it is called being a “Seasoned Prepper”.
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